am i the only one who is not all melancholic for raya? i mean im way past the stage of excitement for duit raya and dolling up and all because
a) the dolling up is always a disappointment- what makes you think you’d magically be prettier than ever before on one specific day
b) im not a fan of the whole get together and apologize with people because WHY. what makes you so idk what the word is, like, why must it be today. whats wrong with doing it like a week ago. its the dolling up thingy all over again
c) being the resident maid trumps anything else. i mean seriously, even if i was excited, im too tired to realise it
i think i am very much a skeptic now? i just wana read my book, work on my project, hit the quiet laboratory and befriend machines.
maybe im just not enlightened enough, idk.
im too exhausted for this
holy crap i am a nervous wreck
my last few hours in sg for the next month. MONTH holy crap im nervous horrified this is some scary shit like im excited yeah but i am, so scared hoooomg okay its fine dont freak out.
few more things to put in, then im all set to go. this is so scary
sometimes i get surprised at how fast the realisation comes. its better than the alternative, but is it worth it.
i think its time to like, keep a whole bunch of throw-able things near me when im studying.
cos like, i cant keep throwing my pens and then go pick it up like some idiot hahaha
tell me the difference between limen liminal liminal space liminal rights and liminoid.
i want an ass like jen selter’s. better werk.
realised now i was having a ridic breakdown
LOL its all good, got my head back on straight and i regret nothinggggggggg. shall remove the goo from my tumblr now.
play martyr, see if i care.
*super dramatic welcome bow* please, take the stage.
honestly damn stressed out like how do i deal with this my poor baby.